Back in the Ether
For what it's worth, here is about half of my big waaaaaahhhhhhh session from last Friday, when I still had no internets (fixed today, finally! new modem.) I left out the relationship stuff, because, well, there's too much to say, and I don't feel entirely clear about what I really want to say, anyway. So you get to read about my health problems, mostly, sorry, it's just been a dominant issue. Anyway...
Internet has been down all week, and it’s just as well, maybe. I’ve been one miserable fuck. 12:30 a.m probably isn’t the best time to start writing about why that is, but well, it’s as good a time as any. Where do I start?
Work. You know what, I could say a lot about it. I could get into a lot of specifics. I could talk about our new director, and bash a few of his, uh, management techniques. I could talk about one of my clients, but she’s exhausted me enough already this week. I mean, seriously, I’ve already written enough about her this week in regular old work notes to fill a small book. Work. Suffice to say I’m still considering quitting. (Addendum: She was admitted to a psych unit over the weekend. If only that meant I get a break from her.)
Health. Got the X-rays back. I guess I have degenerative disc disease, that’s a misnomer, they say (so why do they call it that?) because technically it’s not a disease, and technically it doesn’t mean your discs are currently in the process of degenerating, only that they already, uh, have. But there are degrees. As of now I have only spoken with my chiro about the written report that he received, have picked up the films and viewed them myself but he hasn’t seen them yet to analyze on his own and tell me how good/bad the situation is. I sure as damned hell can see where the discs are fucked up, though.
Strangely I have more pain, a lot more pain, about six inches below the “bad” discs. One fairly cool thing that’s coming out of all this is that I get to use an inversion table at my house for awhile. You know, one of those things you strap your ankles to and then flip upside down so your spine can lengthen and decompress. I can be just like Robert Scorpio on General Hospital now!
Other health: Frozen shoulder is really starting to state its intentions, and I’m annoyed.
Other health: Came down with a UTI/bladder infection yesterday, had to leave work a bit early for an emergency appointment to get some treatment. When I was at the office they asked, “Any fever or chills?” “No,” I blithely reply, though I could’ve said “Not yet! Give me about 3 hours!” ‘Cause yeah, I had a fever of 101 last night and I was freezing my ass off. Something about having a fever like that always makes me feel about 7 years old, so I found myself crying more than once, and feeling very small. Picked up an antibiotic, hemmed and hawed about whether to use it or try riding it out with cranberry juice and garlic pills and vitamin C and some other shit called colloidal silver. But then I got scared, and as much I really actually hate antibiotics, I decided to take them. They are making me feel weird. (Addendum: They are still making me feel weird.)
And there ends what I wrote last Friday. So yeah, Health! Issues! Boring! Like I said at the beginning of this post, it's been hard to ignore them. But - I am hoping to start a yoga class on Friday, that's when they have the "beginner" sessions, though I do actually know quite a few postures already. And again, the inversion table is coming. And - I'm considering getting a new bed, even though I kind of looove the size of my California King. I just don't think it's treating my back as well as it could. I may look into getting a knock-off Tempur-pedic. I will not be able to afford a King size :(
I guess I'm just saying I'm optimistic about changing the course of things, health-wise. And another thing - I'm feeling more optimistic relationship-wise, too, which is part of the reason I don't want to talk about that stuff too much.
Tonight I did laundry for my client that is in the hospital. Tomorrow I am going to visit her for the first time since she was admitted. She will either be overjoyed to see me and beg me to let her leave with me, or she will want my head on a platter and still beg to leave with me. I played absolutely no role in her being hospitalized. It was actually completely out of our staff's hands. But she may still hold me responsible somehow. I'm looking forward to seeing her, and bringing her clean clothes. I know she's totally freaked and pissed about being there, and I can't say I blame her. I hope the visit does some good.
I just ate a peach, and it was delicious. Now it's time to eat some Advil.
Internet has been down all week, and it’s just as well, maybe. I’ve been one miserable fuck. 12:30 a.m probably isn’t the best time to start writing about why that is, but well, it’s as good a time as any. Where do I start?
Work. You know what, I could say a lot about it. I could get into a lot of specifics. I could talk about our new director, and bash a few of his, uh, management techniques. I could talk about one of my clients, but she’s exhausted me enough already this week. I mean, seriously, I’ve already written enough about her this week in regular old work notes to fill a small book. Work. Suffice to say I’m still considering quitting. (Addendum: She was admitted to a psych unit over the weekend. If only that meant I get a break from her.)
Health. Got the X-rays back. I guess I have degenerative disc disease, that’s a misnomer, they say (so why do they call it that?) because technically it’s not a disease, and technically it doesn’t mean your discs are currently in the process of degenerating, only that they already, uh, have. But there are degrees. As of now I have only spoken with my chiro about the written report that he received, have picked up the films and viewed them myself but he hasn’t seen them yet to analyze on his own and tell me how good/bad the situation is. I sure as damned hell can see where the discs are fucked up, though.
Strangely I have more pain, a lot more pain, about six inches below the “bad” discs. One fairly cool thing that’s coming out of all this is that I get to use an inversion table at my house for awhile. You know, one of those things you strap your ankles to and then flip upside down so your spine can lengthen and decompress. I can be just like Robert Scorpio on General Hospital now!
Other health: Frozen shoulder is really starting to state its intentions, and I’m annoyed.
Other health: Came down with a UTI/bladder infection yesterday, had to leave work a bit early for an emergency appointment to get some treatment. When I was at the office they asked, “Any fever or chills?” “No,” I blithely reply, though I could’ve said “Not yet! Give me about 3 hours!” ‘Cause yeah, I had a fever of 101 last night and I was freezing my ass off. Something about having a fever like that always makes me feel about 7 years old, so I found myself crying more than once, and feeling very small. Picked up an antibiotic, hemmed and hawed about whether to use it or try riding it out with cranberry juice and garlic pills and vitamin C and some other shit called colloidal silver. But then I got scared, and as much I really actually hate antibiotics, I decided to take them. They are making me feel weird. (Addendum: They are still making me feel weird.)
And there ends what I wrote last Friday. So yeah, Health! Issues! Boring! Like I said at the beginning of this post, it's been hard to ignore them. But - I am hoping to start a yoga class on Friday, that's when they have the "beginner" sessions, though I do actually know quite a few postures already. And again, the inversion table is coming. And - I'm considering getting a new bed, even though I kind of looove the size of my California King. I just don't think it's treating my back as well as it could. I may look into getting a knock-off Tempur-pedic. I will not be able to afford a King size :(
I guess I'm just saying I'm optimistic about changing the course of things, health-wise. And another thing - I'm feeling more optimistic relationship-wise, too, which is part of the reason I don't want to talk about that stuff too much.
Tonight I did laundry for my client that is in the hospital. Tomorrow I am going to visit her for the first time since she was admitted. She will either be overjoyed to see me and beg me to let her leave with me, or she will want my head on a platter and still beg to leave with me. I played absolutely no role in her being hospitalized. It was actually completely out of our staff's hands. But she may still hold me responsible somehow. I'm looking forward to seeing her, and bringing her clean clothes. I know she's totally freaked and pissed about being there, and I can't say I blame her. I hope the visit does some good.
I just ate a peach, and it was delicious. Now it's time to eat some Advil.
posted by Black Egg at 10:42 PM
5 Comments:
damn... you defintly have a lot going on. i dont envy that... glad yer back though!
WTF? where you at? hows the back?
I know, I know. Everything is kicking my ass these days and taking a lot out of me. I have intentions of getting more regular w/ my posts, not to mention checking in on others. It's one goal among many... I will post tonight, and check in w/ you as well. Thanks for checking in and giving me a bit of a kick in the rear!
Glad to hear you are getting some info about your health. It seems like they use the term Degenerative Joint Disease whenever there has been damage to the joints that they can't figure out. But discs are very prone to damage. The pain being lower than the damage might be from the damaged discs affecting a nerve? The pain wouldn't necessarily be right where the disc is in that case. Just a thought.
Yoga! I'd like to do that again.
Inversion table! Lucky! Let us know how you like it! And a new bed might be just the thing- even if it IS smaller :)
Hope things are still looking up- good to hear from you again-
I found out on Friday that the pain in my lower back is in fact also being caused by significant degeneration in that region, in addition to a bone spur. So yes, back is quite fucked, but I am trying like hell to be proactive about it! The inversion table - it's not a typical one, more of a traction device where you put your knees behind this pad and rest your pelvis on another and then hang upside down - kind of rocks! Thx for checking in...
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